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17th March 2012

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What is love? Some say its the look in your eyes when you see that person. Or the smile you get when you think about them. But what if all those things fade? Do you still love that person? What if the person you loved more then anything left, left you for good? For another. Do you still love them? Should you? I have loved another with all i had, I’ve made my share of mistakes and hurt them. But if your unhappy… Leave. Don’t wait til you have a safety net, because how is that fair for the person that you “love”? Leaving them standing in the cold, unable to breath. But only knowing there is a light at the end of the tunnel. And that eventually it will get better, but you don’t know how long til it does? This is for the broken hearted. I know how you feel. Empty, betrayed, no happiness whatsoever. You don’t want to laugh, because you know its not going to help. But you dont want to cry, because it will just make you feel worse. You feel like your heart is falling apart, but not only that, but you know soon your life is going to feel like it’s falling apart too. You don’t think it will ever end, and no matter what this person has done to you, it feels impossible to stop loving them. And everyone wonders why if they have hurt you so much, then why do you still love them. And that’s the confusing part, you don’t know why, you just do, and the people who hurt you the most are normally the ones you love the most. And then, after a few weeks, you finally feel a sense of relief, like you’re getting happy again, but you know inside your just going into denial. And after a few more weeks, you’re back to where you were, an empty soul and teary eyes. You thought you got over them, but really, you just stopped showing it. And you can’t help but show it again. It leaves deep scars on your heart that are there forever. And no one understands how you feel or how deep you are hurt, no matter who they are, because its hasn’t happened to them. And even if it has, every broken heart is different. They don’t know the true pain you feel and carry each and everyday now, so you learn that basically you are alone with all this. And the feeling starts to overwhelm you, and suddenly you just break down, right there, because you know you’ve had enough, the tears just instantly start flowing and you’re to the point where you dont care who see’s. Because you’ve spent so many nights lying awake in bed, so many days being haunted by the scars and fear of rejection. And in the midst of all these tears, you know that its not helping any, and it’s not going to bring them back, if you ever even had them in the first place. After about a million zillion tears have been cried, you finally pull yourself back together and keep going. Your throat starts to clench and your eyes burn with the tears you are trying to hold back. Everyone says, “it will be okay…” But you know it won’t. And that’s the truth, it won’t. and you look back on all of the hurt you had from this, and you realize people are horrible. You’re still hurt, but you’ve learned to hide it so that everyone thinks you are okay. So now every time you see this person, you know you still love them, and you feel a slight tingle in your heart yearning for them to love you, screaming out, but for some reason they don’t hear it. And then you sit back and wonder how one person could have caused all this…

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